Endurance

I started off the day with a migraine , pfft ! Now , my mind always lingers with questions that i myself am not sure of the answers . I just ponder why people just can't leave me alone y'know. My problems just keep on coming, well, that's life. You say you have no sense of interest with me but you just keep on coming to me. Well, you're obviously putting me in a difficult spot. Furthermore, you destroyed my day by telling me that you owned a girlfriend and that practically suck. Y'know the guilt I carry that I actually dated someone else boyfriend. Not only that, I allow myself to be taken advantage of. This is definitely a lesson to be learnt. But I must say, you owned a really charming personality that everyone will be easily drawn to. I'm just the type of person who doesn't like to hold grudges y'know. What has happened just happened, we just have to suck it up and fuck it. Now I have to face you every single time at work, that suck alot. Seeing you it's just simply just like being haunted by own nightmares. It's hard that I have to just keep on enduring cause life is just made to be unfair. I have to just stop falling for someone else personality as easy.

Love Drunk

To love or to be loved

 

Sometimes part of me just want to give up and sometimes a part of me just want to give in . But at the end of the day , who was right and who was wrong ? What have I've been fighting for ? Fighting for someone that pretend to ignore the fact that we're much more or maybe fighting for someone who is denying himself and was confused or maybe I'm just full of myself ? The way I see it , nothing is ever right nor wrong. We always say no one understand us but do we even understand ourselves ? Do I know what I even want at the end of the day? Because I know if these keeps up it's pointless. If I don't know where I stand , it's definitely pointless. No matter how many dates i went , how many guys i date , I can never fucking get you off my fucking mind. Y'know what the best part is you're not even my boyfriend yet i feel so compelled. The treat me so good yet so bad. No one can ever fix a broken hearted girl. 

The Pilot

So ? Its been a zillion years since I last blog ! But y'know they say ,"When the going gets tough , the tough gets going. " I don't even know why i'm picking up the habit of blogging again y'know . Maybe, I just need to say some things that are loud without having anyone to notice or listen to it. As years past, I'm getting more reserved to myself and sometimes the worst part is, I let my feelings get the best of me. The mixed emotions drives me crazy. I had a pretty roller coaster ride for all I know. Additionally, getting my heart broken and shattered into pieces and having me to pick myself back up again isn't a thing I favortise the most, I guess ? There is so much to say in this first blog post of mine but i wished i could. At least at here, I can say things that no one can ever know.